Ever since she's gone few days back (11 March 2011), I kept thinking she's still around.. And then woke up every morning, realising the usual sweet chirpings are not there anymore..
The small tree where she's born... has bloomed beautifully.. even fuller than ever. Be it my imagination, I hope this is a sign that QQ has gone to her Sunbird paradise, where she is returned and blessed with a pair of light beautiful wings, which is forgotten to be given. I had given everything I could, but I am upset the fact that I do anything beyond my ability to make her fly, perhaps that's the only regret I have - without the ability to make miracle happened once more.
Although she's gone, I could feel her alive in my heart. It's true... Instead of feeling the sadness of losing her, somehow my mind keeps replaying every sweet little details between me and her, the first time when we met, the first time she jumped onto me, the first time she licked my finger, the times when she shaked her tail when I walked pass and the times when we just looked at each other curiously and she chirped innocently looking at me with her bright little round eyes. Those are the magical moments that she left behind..
I love her deeply from my heart. She is indeed such sweet little soul that I will never forget..
Her family seems to know that she will be gone. They didn't panicked.. like their kind would be when their babies are gone.. I am happy they carried on their lives.. at least the Sunbird mama knows that we had done everything. I couldn't explain why I say that, because they just tell.
Today, the Sunbird family came back to the fully bloomed tree. QQ's smaller sibling (KK) came back too. That makes 3 of them. They were sunbathing on my tree, feeding on the flower pollens, playing with one another. It was a wonderful scene. KK seems to recognise us and he didn't fly away when we were near. We are glad that the whole family are enjoying their life now especially KK. How mysterious life is.
I couldn't imagine that he is right in front of my eyes feeding on the pollen if we did not put the net there to save him when he fell. I feel blessed, so do they.
